There are many things to be grateful for, so in no way do I mean to complain in this blog post. That being said, lately I've been feeling extremely overwhelmed. Between working three jobs, being newly engaged and starting my new business from scratch, there is a lot on my plate! I couldn't ask to be in a better place than I am now, but with all these blessings comes lots of responsibilities. There is so much that goes into starting a new business. Things you would never think of initially, like what color and style of curtains to get.. what length? What hardware I need, the type of ceiling fan to pick, where to advertise. There are so many choices! I am so happy to be engaged to the love of my life, but checking out these Long Island wedding venues with our 250+ wedding guest list is making me feel bankrupt before I even get a chance to walk in the door. I'm teaching yoga, working at a restaurant, and also working my corporate job while all of this is going on. Yesterday I started my day by going to my bank, transferring funds, to stopping on route 110 to pick up a "Coming Soon" sign I had made to put in the window of the yoga studio, to stopping at the yoga studio to drop of the security deposit check to my landlord and hang the sign, then to work in Lake Grove.. As I'm working, I also got a call from Natural Awakenings magazine to talk about advertising choices and costs, then I got a call from the family friend making my signs to resend pictures she couldn't find, then a call from my mom to call a wedding venue that her friend got married at to make an appointment, then to call my fiance to see if he would be working overtime or not to see what time to make the appointment, then calling the venue to make the appointment, then having to contact my graphic design artist because I couldn't forward an image he sent me to the sign guy, so I had to ask him to send it directly to them, then calling back the sign guy to make sure he got the images he needed, to getting the drawings of the signs for approval, oh and did I mention I was working this whole time too? I could add about 1,000 more things to my typical multi-tasking day, but I'm sure your head is spinning enough already!
The point is, in the madness of our priorities, we can get wrapped up in a whirlwind that can have us spriling into stress, stress, and more stress. I had to stop myself yesterday when I was feeling unwantedly overwhelmed and remind myself of why I'm doing all of this. I love yoga. I love the way it makes me feel, and I love teaching yoga to make other people feel better. I believe in alternative forms of healing. I've seen it work on myself and other people. I love to help heal people. I'm opening a business to do just that. I am lucky enough to have found my soul mate, and with that I have the opportunity to marry him. I'm lucky that my mom's good friend owns a sign company and is helping me out big time with making beautiful signs for my business at a price uncomparable to anywhere else. I am lucky ! So instead of letting myself feel stressed beyond belief, I stop and count my blessings. I acknowlege all the things I'm grateful for in my life. I am on the right path, heading in the right direction. So the stress and dizziness dissolves and contenment emerges. I surrender to what is, and with that comes internal peace.